The New Year

Well, here it is 2009, and I dont have a whole lot of plans just yet. I do plan on however losing 30 pounds. I just want to look like I did before I had the baby. Nothing major, just a better self esteem. I have started by making one big change, I no longer drink sodas although I could use some serious caffine right about now.
Family life is going great. I am back in school, Robert has two teeth, and Wes couldn't be happier.
Robert is getting so big, every day seems to bring new changes. I can't believe that in about 4 months I will be planning his first birthday. He has already said his first word, and believe it or not, I won, he says "momma". And its "momma" all day long. Oh my gosh is he busy too. Constantly on the move. If he is on the floor he is into everything. He crawls, backwards... he hasnt quite learned how to push himself forward yet. But he is getting there. If he gets stuck against something, he pushes off of it and turns himself so that he can move again. I have to keep a major eye on him now. If not everything will end up in his mouth. Having a baby is a busy job, but I wouldn't change it for the world.
Im doing well, like I said Im back in school. I am about to transfer from a tech college to a university. Im nervous about it, its going to be a lot more work. But in the end its going to be well worth it. I am however changing my major. I want to be a regular ed teacher. I am burnt out on special ed. Even though my job is rewarding, after doing it for so long, my nerves just can't take it anymore. Plus the politics of it and even more stressful. Work is going really well though. I have a differnt state of mind when Im there. Im there for the kids and nothing else. I put my other feeling aside and do my job. Speically since it's so hard to find another one. I know Im safe there and I dont want to jeopardize that.
Wes is doing GREAT! He is in his last week of training and he is so excited. Starting next week he will be on his own doing his own thing. I see such a spark in his with the job. He doesn't get up dreading his day anymore like he did with his old job. He comes home with a million and one stories and even though some days are not a busy as the others, he is still loving it. Im so proud of him too. He has pursued his dreams and everyday they are coming true.

I am going to miss her.

Well, here it is December and Christmas is right around the corner. I am really looking forward to it this year. Except for one thing, I dont know if everyone knows, but my Grandmother passed away on Friday. I was really close to her and I am going to miss her a lot. She was a wonderful person. She was very strong and was not afraid to tell you how it is. She was born and raised in Holland, and moved to the states when she was a young lady. She was so in love with my Grandpa. Everyone has always said that they acted like newlyweds. I never saw them mad at each other one time. She did everything for him, and he kissed the ground that she walked on. To see them together was like watching a fairytale, with a lot of comedy in it. They had 3 boys, 3 grandsons, 1 grand-daughter, and one great grandson. My grandmother loved animals, she was on the Board of Directors for the Angel Dog Rescue in Eufaula, AL. She would do anything for a animal in need. She was a wonderful woman, and I am going to miss our hour long talks every few weeks. I love you Grandma, I miss you.

Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone

I know it's a few days early, but I won't have time to tell everyone on Thanksgiving. I will be in Alabama with my family. I hope that everyone enjoys all the fixings and whom ever you are spending it with. What are you thankful for? I am thankful for my life. I have learned to live each day to the fullest and remember what matters the most. To me that is my family. If it weren't for them I dont know who I would be. I love being a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, etc.

November and ALOT going on

Here it is November. Life is going okay, but I wish that somethings could be different. I am realizing my faith in the lord and how strong I need him. After somethings have happened I know that he is really the only one that I can talk to. I am not going to church, but I hope to soon. I am a very shy person and hate meeting new people by myself. But I am realizing that is just what is going to happen. I really want Robert in church, and even though he is too young to even know what is going on I think that it will be a good place for us. And hopefully that once I start going I can show Wes that as a family, it's where we need to be.
I am starting to doubt myself. Wes is living this high life that is fast paced and a dream come true for him. Don't get me wrong I am very proud of him and support him to the fullest. But I feel like I just can't keep up. He is always at the gym, and I can't seem to find the time to go myself. I can go, but I don't trust the daycare that they have there. There are big kids running and jumping all over the place and it's just not baby friendly. And specially after Robert spent 3 days in the hospital because of something that he got from another child, I just don't want to go through that again. But I feel like my dreams are now on the back burner. I work all day and then have to come home and take care of the baby all by myself. I do plan on going back to school in January and my neighbor (God Bless Her!!!) is going to keep him for 4 hours twice a week so I can go back. I am totally excited about it. But will it be too much for Robert? I know that it was my choice to be a mom, and I love it completely, but sometimes I think I asked for it too soon. OH WELL!!! It was my choice and I have to figure it out.
Robert is doing awsome. He is so grown up at only 4 months old. I can't believe how time flies. He is such a happy little boy. He is teething, no teeth yet, but I see them is our near future. He is rolling over, sitting up, and best of all he can hold his own bottle (when he is not being lazy). He is sleeping in his own bed finally too. Even though its so far away from me (just one room over... I know so far, but when they have been in the bed with you since day one, that is a long ways away.) He loves peek a boo, and loves tickles. He is eating baby food, bananas are his favorite. We are hoping to invest in a walker soon. He definatley a mover. He loves to sit with you and just chat. Especially with his MiMi.
Wesley is doing great. As I mentioned, he is living his dream. He comes home every night so excited about everything that he has done. And yeah he has his bad nights that he is just bored out of his mind, but the next night always seems to make up for it. He loves being a dad. Every time he has Robert I just see this sparkle in him. Specially when Robert laughs, Wes always wants him to do it more. They make it all worth while.
I know that I might complain about things in my life, but in the end when my day is all done, all I have to do is look at my son, and look at my husband, and then take a look up at God, and I know my life is what it is supposed to be right now. And trust me I know it could be A LOT worse.

7 Random Things

Ok Leza this is for you!

7 random things....
1. I am a total Country music buff. Growing up, its all I was pretty much able to listen to.

2. I love Army Wives. Even though Im not one, I know many of them. But I think that a cop's wife comes in a close second with an Army wife.

3. I dont like wine. The only thing that I will drink is Bud Light and Miller Chill. So if I show up, have your fridge packed for me!

4. I want to own a farm! I know I know, what a dream. But I have always dreamt of having a few acers of land with a couple of horses and a cute little country cottage in the middle of no where.

5. I would love to be in the military again. Everyday I think about why I got out, and I totally regret it. But the past is the past and God had other plans for me.

6. I love being a mom. After 2 years of wanting a baby and thinking that I couldnt have one, God blessed me with a wonderful baby boy who looks and acts just like his daddy (OH NO!!!).

7. I love my friends. And the two closest to me and the farthest away from me. They changed my life in so many ways. And I consider them more of my family than my friends. I love you Leza and Christa. I cant wait to see yall again some day!

Here it is October already. Robert is almost 4 months old. My how time flies. He is such a wonderful little boy. Definatley a handful, but still a wonderful blessing to my life. He is so big. He now weighs almost 14 pounds. And his personality is definatley blooming. He is a very talkative baby. Specially with his daddy. When he hears Wes talking he just goes nuts and starts babbling like crazy. He is loving daycare. He really developed once he got used to it. He loves to stand still and play in his excersaucer. Our biggest issue is sleeping. He thinks he belongs in the bed with mommy. But that is starting to change. We are working on getting him in his crib.

I am doing well. I am looking for a new job to make more money. Dont get me wrong, I love my job, but the pay sucks. I am loving being a mom. There definatley is no greater gift.

Wes is now an official Savannah Metro Police officer. So watch out if you are in town!!! He loves it too. He is working an odd shift right now, and its something that I have to get used to. Its the one that I really wont get to see too much of him. But that is ok, it will get better. Life is great and I couldnt ask for it to be better!

A Few Changes

Well, we are about to make a few changes, and I am super nervous about them. Robbie starts school on Monday the 25th. I know it will be good for him, and me. But after having him every day for the past 8 weeks, it will still be hard. I go back to work on the 28th. I am really looking forward to it. We get a whole new set of kids with a whole new set of challenges. It will keep me busy. Wesley is graduating in the 12th of Sept. He is really looking forward to that. His dream will finally come true. I am so proud of him. He has worked so hard to get to this point. Well that is it. Wish us luck!!!