Friday, March 13, 2009


This was taken in 2007 2 months before I got pregnant. It was taken in Kentucky. I was 176 and was a size 10-12. I was very happy with the way that I looked. I was wearing a size Medium shirt. I was tan, healthy, and just pure HAPPY!
This was taken on my 23 birthday in 2007. I was confident enough to go to a baseball game in shorts and a tight shirt. I was very happy and my self-esteem was high. I felt like I looked "normal."

OK, so I have been working out pretty well (except for this week because I had tonsillitis). Anyways, I was able to make it back to the gym tonight and for once I tried running a whole mile without stopping. And much to my surprise it would have been a good 12 minute mile, which for me is good considering I am more of a "fast" walker than a runner. Anyways, about half way through the last 1/4 mile, I got into a horrible coughing spell. I ended up having to quit and go back home because I was coughing so hard I ended up peeing on myself. It was horrible. Having had a baby really messed up my peeing muscles. But I was really upset. I have goals set for myself. I was hopping that wouldn't happen tonight. I could feel it coming on and I thought that the water would ease it. But it just got worse. OMG, I hope that I get over this crap soon. I am ready to get back on track. But I have been doing really well with one thing. My diet, I have done so well sticking to it and staying away from sweets. I have shrank my stomach so much that I can only eat a few bites of my meals before I get full. Wes is enjoying it though, he gets all my left overs. He is my human garbage disposal. But he is wanting to gain weight, where as I want to lose it. So it works out. I just eat smaller portions, and he gets double the portions. But he enjoys grilled foods and isn't huge about fried foods. So that helps me too. Now our biggest thing is to stop eating out every night. I am going grocery shopping tomorrow and getting everything we need for the next week. And what is even better is that Wes wont be home Monday and Tuesday night, so I can tuna fish and salad. He hates tuna fish. And then I can make a home made grilled chicken salad the next night. I don't want to lose a certain number of "pounds," but rather I want to just look healthy again. Before I had Robert I weighed 179, but I was a size 10. I was that size through out high school. So if I could just get back there, that would be great. I have always been considered big when it came to pounds, but when it came to the way that I looked, I have been considered to look healthy. And I know that I will never be "tiny." But I just want to look good and look attractive.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

YEAH it's already March, and it's great! Life is great! I do have some downs, but I am trying to look on the positive of it all. Robbie is doing great great great! He is 8 months old now and is becoming such a big boy.Although he has been sick the past week with RSV you can't hardley tell unless you hear him breathing. Poor bug sounds horrible. But he is CRAWLING FORWARD finally. He started about a month ago. And I will tell you this, he is on the move now. We had to put baby gates up and next weekend I have to baby proof the house. 5f ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, mhjnmkhhjyjtxcryfvu (Robbie says "Hi!") Anyways, I'm doing well. Now that it's warm again I have started doing 5Ks again. Yesterday I did the March of Dimes Shamrock fitness walk. And in April I am doing the Susan G. Komen Walk for the Cure in support of my mom who is a Breast Cancer Survivor. And in October I am doing the Three day walk which is 60 miles (I have a lot of prepping to do for that one). Again that is in support of my mom. It's in Tampa, so itll be a small vacation. Anyways, school is going really well. I am doing good considering how hectic life can get. Work, well other than the flu going around (Thank God I havent gotten it) not too bad. Just busy. Wesley is doing really great. He has been sick, but other than that, great. He is staying really busy at work and he is really enjoying his job. And he did get cut loose back in January. So he driving on his own without someone there to tell him what to do. Well, that is it for now. SEE YA!